Can you overdose on anxiety and exhaustion?
I came pretty close
Had to be resuscitated by love and strength
Had to bring me back to life
Had to bring me back to focus
Had to remind myself
Stress is not my identity
Anxiety does not define me
“I don’t ever wanna feel like I did that day
take me to the place I love
take me all the way”
I was in a dark place and just kept going
Spiraling
Couldn’t feel my legs
Couldn’t feel my arms
The stress was showing
My emotions imploding
Exhausted
I couldn’t take it anymore
Scrounging for a natural cure
Not feeling safe
Not feeling secure
“I don’t ever wanna feel like I did that day
take me to a place I love
take me all the way”
There are dark parts to me
The ones I hide
The skeletons I keep inside
Just painful memories as I weep
Trying to heal but it won’t work
If I keep pretending I’m not hurt
Coatlicue calling
I must do the work
Dig deep in the shadows even if it hurts
“I don’t ever want to feel like I did that day
take me to a place I love
take me all the way”
Destroying all that has tried to destroy me
In an effort to restore me
Learning to dance with my devils
Forgive my sins
Find peace within
Can’t reach the top
Until we’ve scraped our knees at the bottom
“I don’t ever want to feel like I did that day
Take me to a place I love
Take me all the way”
Swimming in these murky waters
Diving right in
To the depths of the earth I swim
I call back my power
From all spaces
From all places
As I shed more and more tears
Things become more clear
I can see all parts of me
Co existing beautifully
For to see the light we need the dark, duality
“I don’t ever want to feel like I did that day
Take me to a place I love
Take me all the way”
Look in the mirror and I see
The place I love, is all parts of me
Title of Piece:
Coatlicue Calling
Abstract- Tell us about your idea for a submission.:
During Scorpio season I went through a substantial amount of transformation and pain. To be entirely transparent it’s been over a year of ups and downs, in the world and my home. I had my first severe panic attack two weeks ago, my body could not handle the stress and exhaustion cocktail with fibromyalgia as a glass. I had to ride the waves and anxiety that followed. My spirit guides speak to me quite often in music. I listened to a playlist I created a month prior on shuffle and ” Under the bridge” by The Red Hot Chili Peppers came on and I began to weep. “I don’t ever want to feel like I did that day, take me to the place I love, take me all the way”. I kept trying to fight the transformation, it has taken me so much to realize it was necessary. I exist as light and dark, I am an emotional Alchemist. I had to put the pain somewhere, so I wrote this piece, Coatlicue Calling was born.
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